Croo....Croo....Snore....

Blogging again after a long time at the request of a certain someone. Frankly speaking, I dont know what to blog about, then again it was never like I knew what to write. It just came.

Anyways, lets first have an update on my life.

Went for a movie with Praven, Sameer and KC yesterday. It was last minute thing and Im glad they came. Thanks Guys! And happy birthday to KC, who is going to play my tech geek in my Zombie Flick. Woots!

Got a lot on my plate now, courtesy of schoolwork and AFT stuff, but all that is under control too, I hope.

Zzzz. Im just tired right now. And I cant really pour out my heart here... Lol.

Sorry guys. Looks like this is going to be a pretty boring blog for a while...

;D

A Birthday I wont forget!

I am at a loss for words here..

Im wondering if today was really worth it? LOL! Ouch I Know...But read on guys...Ill explain why...

I just had a birthday surprise party with my families...note the word families. Both my real ones and my friends who have become families...

But at the same time, Im behind work.... WAYYYY Behind work. Supposed to finish work today, but once again, im behind!!! Haix...

I've been alive for 687035 days OR 16489096 Hours OR 989345725 Minutes OR 59360743462 Seconds...

LOL! yes I was calculating that the whole day!!!

And it WAS an awesome day!!!

I was out with my cuz who said he wanted to see some parrot and buy it (i fell for it). Then he decided not to buy it. Then we came back...I walked through the door....

To see like 16 people sat there who screamed 'SURPRISE' AND STARTED SINGING HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Oh My God Guys! Really. I was stunned, shocked, surprised and just completely shut down.

I just couldn't register anything in my mind. I was beyond....wow!

And yes guys... 'I NEEDED A MOMENT!' Lol!

thanks to Nithya and Suadz and Isabelle And Shanty and god knows who else for masterminding this... And thanks to everyone for helping to give me a cardiac arrest!!! Lol!! I really appreciate it!!

I .... wow... Im still shocked. Lol....

Just know that I came back to do work that I was supposed to finish tonight, but now im just to heck care it.... Lol! You guys just made my day.

Truth is, it really was the best birthday surprise I've ever had...And I've had a lot in my life...but this was the best... Cos this was the first time I could see both my families, my real ones and the ones who have grown to be family.

Tomorrow is back to life....as a nineteen year old this time...

Yet, Im gonna kena for not doing work....for not prioritising... for not being responsible!!!

I'm gonna get scolded and yelled at and put down for being behind my tasks....For enjoying myself instead of doing work....For not doing work, again!

So...Is it worth it to go through all that pain-to-come for a moment of peace and serenity?

Yes...

It is worth every goddamn second...and you better believe it...


Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends...

Today was a Good Day...

Wa!

My stupid laptop just shut off by itself, deleting whatever I was typing in here. Lol!

And the only thing that was saved was the title. LOL!

Irony...haix.

Anyways, left school early today and met Shan. Then followed her to CCK where she croo-crooed me to send Isaac of to work. Lol. Sharks Sharks!

Then I met up with Ganesh and Henry and later Shanty again at Woodlands. Ate @ Breeks. Good food! Then later we went job-hunting all over Causeway Point.

Congrats to Ganesh for landing a job at Gelare within 5 mins. And happy birthday to her too! =D

Me, Shan and Henry decided to work at Pastamania, but we gotta go down on Monday to see of we get it, so pray hard for us guys.

Oh by the way, Me, Ganesh, Henry and Shan have officially become the 'Anjax Hunters'.

To those who dont know what an Anjax is :

• Typical Indian Gangster wannabe (The indian version of an Ah Beng)

• Recognized by their horrible fashion sense, their odd screeching noises and hats that float 3m off their heads.

• Habitats include cheap foodcourts, under void decks and in police stations.

• Never found in Libraries, Bookshops or any other place deemed too intellectual for them.

Lol. We went around chasing after this group of 4 Indian anjax-wannabe kids, like around 14 years of age, all over casueway. After a while the kids got irritated! And nice going Ganesh, you gave our plan away. You are so NOT my SWAT team now!

After that saga, met Isabelle and went to Woodlands Lib where Indra joined us later. I slept til like 7 then we went back to Semb RC to chillax. Back home now. Gonna watch 'Shaun of the Dead' to get inspired.

And to Mani----We shall talk soon!!

Love ya!

Friday is Here!!!

YES!!!

The weekend. Just have to hold out for another 6 more hours exactly til school's out for the week. Need this 2 and a half days to chillax.

Got some school work, but after what happened yesterday I intend to finish it... and finish it well.

And to my bro whom I pissed off yesterday... Sorry man. I knew I was slacking off, and that ain't right. You're already doing a hell lot, so it wasn't fair for me to slack while you did work.

Gonna be seeing AFT people later. Supposed to have rehearsals in the eve... I wonder if that is still on??

Anyways, the treatment for the zombie script is coming along fine. Im about 30-40% in already. Hopefully, quite a number of people will come down tmrw eve to discuss plot and stuff. Surprisingly, quite a number of people are interested.

THANK YOU FOR ENTHUSIASM GUYS!  It really helps when i sit down and need motivation to start typing and thinking.

In school now... bored as usual.

Weird. I always thought poly would be fun. You know like how college is in the US. Just very chillax and stuff.

Quite the opposite. Its boring. I end school on some days later than my classmates. And even if we do end together, I dont normally feel like going out with them. Its like a different group of people that I find hard to associate with. I dont even know my place in class. 

It will have driven me mad if it wasn't for AFT. Just going to school, knowing that you will somehow end up with AFT people is super reassuring. I end school at 3 today. I know that by 310 I will be on the train back to meet peeps.

AH CRAP! 

Forgot to bring my laptop. Could be working on the treatment at Sembawang. Never mind. Will just chill out then. Need it.

And by the way guys... 2 things:

1. What the heck happened to the Pirate's forum?
2. And yes Praba.. I agree. What happened to Frisbee??

Going to go off now... maybe grab a bite or sleep. 

Ill see you guys later.

Peace!

I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, it's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, and that enables you to laugh at life's realities. -Theodor Geisel

Sabotaging myself

Im in school. Bored. Waiting to get out. I am just not in it today. Cant wait to get out and see AFT peeps. 1 hour more. Grr...

Again I find myself in a situation very bad. Sabotaging myself again.

Haix. Thank you Suadz for listening to all the ramblings and stuff. I know I'm bothering you alot but its nice to have someone listen and try to understand me. So hats off to ya Sis. Although I know I'm way to com;licated to be understood in the time frame you've known me.

Whats going on in my life?

Quite a lot.

I brought myself too far to a point from which I cant bring myself back. Not really surprising seeing as how I love to imagine, but I let imagination become hope...dangerous.

I cant say some things on this blog. I have to leave the finer details up to my private blog. Yes I have a private blog...a place just for myself to rant and complain.

God is not being helpful to me...God meaning time. Time is my God, and God is not my side now. I have too many problems going on.

Hating school, jealousy, anger, hate, self-confidence issues and the genereal fear of being left out and behind. I need to release steam...go out and exert myself so that some of this pent up frustration is let out. frisbee might help, but I haven't thrown one in a week.

Its getting harder to focus now. Losing concentration. Slipping...

Its getting more and more obvious too. Im getting more moody, more out of things. You would have noticed.

I have to take time of for myself. Try to come back to my senses. Im like a satellite knocked off its course trying to fly back.

Speaking of satellites, Soundwave is awesome. He had no fight scenes but I like his design and his designation as an intelligence officer...

I know last night's conversation with you was very disturbing. Probably heard stuff you didnt want to hear, but expected to hear. Funny. I knew you weren't surprised.

Just dont know why I'm feeling this way. But I'll come back...Soon. But I dont know if it will be in time.

As for my friends, just now that I still love you guys, no matter what I do in the next few weeks.

Goodbye King

Michael Jackson is dead...

I am Numb....

Cant even start to process this information. Is it true?

I look through the Net and I see all the reports and news...

BBC news going through his life right now...Haix.

The King of Pop is dead....Dead and gone forever...


Now that I think about it, this man has been the reason why I do some things I do.

Without him, I won't be who I am today. I would be a different person, a different being.

From his moonwalk to his glides and energy, this was the man who inspired many around the world to out on their shoes and just dance... including me.

Makes me think about how life can change. One moment you're playing a video game, thinking about nothing in life. And next moment, your idol is gone... And you're wondering what have you done in life that makes you or your friends proud of you...

Life's way too short. And Michael lived it to his fullest.

Screw the media, screw the kids, screw the assholes and wannabes who hated him. He WAS King, will always be KING.

MJ is legend, and legends will live on, til the Sands of Time run out.

Goodbye Michael Jackson..
Goodbye Idol
Goodbye King.

We will remember you for life...


I have my answer now...

The Taking of Pelham 123

Just came back from watching 'The Taking of Pelham 123' with my bro.

Thought it will be a good movie to watch, considering the fact that Denzel and Travolta are in it.

I have to say that I've always loved Denzel's acting. It is always convincing and no matter how many people are on screen, you're eyes are always pulled to him.

I'll skip the movie plot line cos you can just pick it off the net. But for a normally-hyped film, it is quite good.

The interesting part of the film does not involve the barely existent action, but rather the acting by Denzel and John. Amazing acting by both actors.

It is quite interesting to see how 2 people can build a relationship over a radio for 80% of the film's time. The tension builds up between the both, and you can see how each tries to outmanuevuer the other. Not as good as 'Collateral' though, but it was nice to see.

But I have to say that John didn't do quite a good job as Denzel. Denzel made his character believable as someone who's in the wrong place at the wrong time. And his interaction with a voice over the radio was excellent. Brilliance on his part really.

John...I love John. Don't get me wrong. But he didn't really give what he could on this. His interaction with the radio was not as convincing, and in some parts, I felt the dialogues were forced and not said naturally. In my opinion, I felt he could have interpreted charater in different way than the one he chose to portray. Play a more, calmer colder person to balance up with Denzel? I don't know. But I really liked the acting between the two.

There were other notable actors on screen, but about ten minutes in, you know they are just calefare as they disappear into the background.

Its just like 'Collateral'. I have to mention the number of very clever symbolisms they used and their references to the real world situation. Almost unnoticeable, but not too hard to spot.

Overall, this is a movie that's not made for everyone. People who love action and shooting will hate it. But if you love brilliant acting, then this is one nice film to watch.

Why Do I Even Try?

Its been so long since I blogged. Like really blogged about how I felt and everything.

So now im in the mood to really rant and I have to do it now even though I'm tired. If I don't the words will lost forever never to be found again inside this whirlwind I call me, myself and I.

And I am utterly DISGUSTED with me myself and I.

Like SO angry to the point that I am disgusted. Like If i was my friend, I would never talk to this person again. Sucks to be stuck in the skin of something you loathe to the core.

Haix. Its been one long tiring week for me. Never really had a moment to rest. Everything was work from the start. And that prevented me from enjoying myself. Filming and stuff...Grrr...

Dont get me wrong. I love to have fun. But this past 2 weeks of my holidays has been completely burnt out because of stuff. So never really had a moment to relax. That starts the chain effect.

When I can't relax or I'm over stressed, I start taking it out on people. When I really take it out on person who doesnt deserve it, it just adds to my anger.

Why get angry at him/her?

Hate myself more. Continues the chain...

Add to that the fact that I'm behind work now...as always. But I don't understand why I cant get up and do the work that I need to. Where did the drive go? Where did my passion go?

Where did I go?

Grrrr...! Angry again. Like really. I'm not feeling useless. I know I'm capable...MORE than capable...But the fact that I cant get up and do the work and get the results I want is REALLY annoying the hell out of me.

I hate it.

Today's movie marathon is when I nearly lost it. I don't know why, but all of a sudden I just zoned out, spaced out etc. I was so close to bursting and I knew I had to get out of there or else the shit's gonna hit the fan.

So I took off. Full speed around some HDB estate in Sembawang. Did good time too. Felt good to have wind rush into your face...but....

Didnt help in any way.

So I tried to include myself in conversations and try to make people laugh. Succeeded... for a while. In the end just sat down and stared at Optimus Prime transforming and kicking ass, not cheering, coming up with psuedo laughters and all.

Haix.

Question is, how long is it going to take me to get out of this slump?


Time is my God, and with him comes my answer...but even time is not on my side now...

Holi-Dead part 2

Ok!

Just came back to finish the Holi-Dead series. Lol. I think Ill just blog every few days just to record down this boring holiday period. Haix

Just came back home. Was out for shoot today. I actually like filming, just that my spec dip is starting to really take its toll on me. Im just glad its over now. One more day of shoot and a week of editing and I've passed my Spec Dip. W.Oo.Ts

Sorry Mani for making you croo croo in school today. I really thought you might have fun. Didnt know you were sleeping. I owe you Cadbury Chocolate...or Caramel. Whatever it is you like.

I've been trying to find a job as a newspaper distributor, but the god**** company has put up a dummy phone number on their website..

Need the extra cash. Haix. My bro's beside me, talking about a new 'Need for Speed' game. racing..

Haix.

Reminds me. I need to go racing again real soon with Anaz. I will own you in a manual bro...

Well. I gotta go de-stress. Dota or something. YES! I Know! I need a abetter game. But there's nothing like walking around and getting raped (owned) by 4 opponenets. It just jolts you back to reality. Lols. My world...WElcome to it.

I have only one God : Time. With him comes all answers...Remeber that Sis