Haix.
Yep.
I just resigned from work yesterday. With attachment coming up and my 'record' at workplace, I felt it was better if I left while I still was on good terms with everybody... Funny how on your last day everyone suddeny starts talking to you in a more friendly way.
Is it cos your leaving? Or you just finally managed to break down the walls and start making friends? I don't know. But I enjoyed my last day there.
Gonna miss:
The Free Movies
The Unlimited supply of Coke
The Candy Bar
Making popcorn
Walking through empty peaceful halls at night
Shining flashlights into people's faces
Walkie Talkies
The People
Joking around
Sneaking people in
Getting caught for sneaking people in
The excitment of everything going horribly wrong
Spent the last few hours trudging through the stairwells... The exits are honestly the most quietest places I've ever been in. No noise, no people... Maybe just the faint thump of gunfire going off in one hall, and the Indian songs in another but other than that, it is amazingly quiet.
I'll sit there in the dark for like ten minutes, just resting... Then the walkie crackles and I have to go... Lol...
GV Yishun might be the most crappiest cinema in the North, maybe even Singapore...
But its been my sole source of joy for countless years... From Jurassic Park: Lost World (The Theatre was brand new then) to The Hurt Locker, I've watched 90% of all my movies there...
And as I changed out of my uniform one last time, as I cleaned out my locker and walked out of the staff room and punched out in the syrup room before walking into the Manger's office to return my stuff. As I walked into my last free movie and sat down in my seat, I knew that no matter how crappy this place was... I was still gonna come back for countless years to come..
For the very same reason I've been going there for countless years...
It is still the only goddamn cinema within 5 Km of my house...
-Mr Yoji-
10/27/2009
10/25/2009
Back to Normality
So the 1st week of school has just ended.
Only got two modules this sem that are very slack... It's a really good wind down form last sem.
But got my internship in a few weeks. Tomorrow's the interview with my potential new boss, Singapore Police Force. I'm hoping I ace it. It will be a good exposure for me to see how one of Singapore's More Prolific Goverment bodies handles its corporate image and relations. A lot of paperwork, but hey, I ain't complaining.
Anyways, Spook Fest is coming up this Saturday.
Past few days has been nothing but CC Office, print, cut staple. Just preapring the stuff for the event day. Today was our first door to door ticket selling venture, and we did quite well... Ok.
Suba and Serena did quite well... I didn't. Something about being tall, dark and wearing a shirt that says, 'Anger is my energy' must be amjor turnoff... Knew I should have worn the CC shirt.
But we sold 32 tickets! Woots! And we managed to distribute 1200 fliers... I hope to distribute another 1500 by Tuesday, and sell another 30 more...
But it's all hopes... Tell your friends, tell your families, sell tickets, distribute fliers and pray that this event is a success!!!
Only got two modules this sem that are very slack... It's a really good wind down form last sem.
But got my internship in a few weeks. Tomorrow's the interview with my potential new boss, Singapore Police Force. I'm hoping I ace it. It will be a good exposure for me to see how one of Singapore's More Prolific Goverment bodies handles its corporate image and relations. A lot of paperwork, but hey, I ain't complaining.
Anyways, Spook Fest is coming up this Saturday.
Past few days has been nothing but CC Office, print, cut staple. Just preapring the stuff for the event day. Today was our first door to door ticket selling venture, and we did quite well... Ok.
Suba and Serena did quite well... I didn't. Something about being tall, dark and wearing a shirt that says, 'Anger is my energy' must be amjor turnoff... Knew I should have worn the CC shirt.
But we sold 32 tickets! Woots! And we managed to distribute 1200 fliers... I hope to distribute another 1500 by Tuesday, and sell another 30 more...
But it's all hopes... Tell your friends, tell your families, sell tickets, distribute fliers and pray that this event is a success!!!
10/12/2009
It was a Good Run
I don't what is it about me and criminally inclined activities.
Stealing bikes, shoplifting, sneaking people into workplace etc. It's like I was born with a malfunctioning circuit.
Think about it. I shoplifted at the age of 10...and I didn't even know. I took a packet of Hello Panda in my hand, walked out the store while talking animatedly to my friend, and only realised I had shoplifted it when I was throwing away the packet.
Don't even have to talk about my workplace. God knows what I have done subconsciously. But I know I have been sneaking people in for quite some time. So far, I've brought in 20 different sneak ins. But I never thought I was smart enough to get away with it. I was planning for when the shit hit the fan.
And guess what. Today it did... And I wasn;t even working. Tried sneaking in 3 people when I only bought 2 tickets... Naathan, Suadz and Isabelle had no idea I was sneaking 1 person in... Manager caught me.
Well, I'll know tomorrow if I am fired or not. Frankly speaking, I'd rather not work there anymore. Internship is starting soon anyways.
But the gig is up. Once you're caught, own up, face the music and move on to greener pastures. It was good while it lasted.
But honestly speaking, I'm getting irritated with what I'm doing. It's not funny anymore. When you climb into an abandoned school to go ghost hunting, its thrilling.
When you start to steal stuff from people who worked for it, you know you're losing it. I'll go back to my own code of ethics... My own ones. But like I said, it was god while it lasted... Just wish I'd have left work with a good rep instead.
Stealing bikes, shoplifting, sneaking people into workplace etc. It's like I was born with a malfunctioning circuit.
Think about it. I shoplifted at the age of 10...and I didn't even know. I took a packet of Hello Panda in my hand, walked out the store while talking animatedly to my friend, and only realised I had shoplifted it when I was throwing away the packet.
Don't even have to talk about my workplace. God knows what I have done subconsciously. But I know I have been sneaking people in for quite some time. So far, I've brought in 20 different sneak ins. But I never thought I was smart enough to get away with it. I was planning for when the shit hit the fan.
And guess what. Today it did... And I wasn;t even working. Tried sneaking in 3 people when I only bought 2 tickets... Naathan, Suadz and Isabelle had no idea I was sneaking 1 person in... Manager caught me.
Well, I'll know tomorrow if I am fired or not. Frankly speaking, I'd rather not work there anymore. Internship is starting soon anyways.
But the gig is up. Once you're caught, own up, face the music and move on to greener pastures. It was good while it lasted.
But honestly speaking, I'm getting irritated with what I'm doing. It's not funny anymore. When you climb into an abandoned school to go ghost hunting, its thrilling.
When you start to steal stuff from people who worked for it, you know you're losing it. I'll go back to my own code of ethics... My own ones. But like I said, it was god while it lasted... Just wish I'd have left work with a good rep instead.
10/11/2009
Its Easier Said than Done
It's not easy being a member of a species that decides its life based on emotions... Especially when your angsty like me. I'm not someone who gets angry easily. I try to keep my cool, but there are times when I lose it completely. Some of my friends have seen glimpses of those times. On the train back from MJ Tribute dance, the MJ dance at the wedding etc. I never blew up in front of any of my friends, well at least not all.
There was still the time I started screaming on the bus at Nithya. Why? I was jealous that she liked Anaz. Was it a rational decision? Screaming "Fuck you lah Chee Bai Tiu Lei Lo Mo" on a bus full of school children is never rational...
Was it logical?
If you take into consideration the nature of our species... Yes it was logical. Why wouldn't I be angry? And Jealous? I didn't have the right to, but thats the thing. If people keep saying, 'You dont have the rights to -blah blah-', then where do I show my emotions? Lock them up?
Is there a way for me to obtain this right? The right to shout at someone. The right to feel jealous... Screw it man, I'm going to start a comapny that hands out this rights to people who give justifiable reasons... It would be fun, but at the same time, it will give people a chance to reveal their problems.
I know people have told you that what you did was wrong Suadz. People are asking you why did you blog that way about Parmes. Some even ask you what rights do you have to do that... Can you help me ask them what rights do they have to advice or scold you about what you say on your own blog? No one has the rights to say anything about what you said...
But then again, when a man kills his wife for cheating on him, is it a display of his anger? Yes. He was angry and felt betrayed and he took it out on his wife. But does his emotions give him the rights to kill her? No.
Was it wrong? Who knows... We live in a lawful society where the laws are written by Man..Who knows what is the universal meaning of right and wrong... We are just living by Man's standard of right and wrong.
But what you did was an expression of how you felt at that time. I wont deny it... It feels good to just bitch and rant about someone.
We've been doing it for the past 3 weeks about our own friends. Why? Cos we were angry and it felt good and right to do it. They talked about us too. They felt betrayed and insulted, so that gave them the 'right' to talk about us.
But amongst all that dislike and bitching, we forgot the one most important thing... That we are human... Everyone is flawed. Why must I hate on someone for a minute flaw when they have done so much for me. I felt this when I bought a bottle of Heineken and sat down with a friend to drink at Broadway. Before we started, I was like "I'm sitting down and drinking beer with someone I've been bitching about for 2 weeks or so."...
By the end, I was like, "Why was I bitching about someone whom I know cared for me, and still does. Who has done so much, who has helped so much. Who respects me, and knows the feeling was mutual. Whom I treasure as a clsoe friends, a teammate, a part of a family..."
I felt stupid and duped by my own feelings. I felt I had potentially ruined my relationship with many people. But I realised something else later on when I sat down and drank with other friends...
Sometimes its easy to forget we are beings of emotions... We have feelings. We get angry and tend to pick our flaws or make up flaws and bitch about one another. We give in to anger and hate and let our emotions deicide the course of our life.
As for my friends, I think you know who you guys are. I went through a rough patch. I took out my anger on you guys, even though I believed it would never happen again. I wont give excuses. I will apologize, but I expect no forgiveness. Its easy to say sorry... Its harder to repair the damage you caused...
I gave in to my anger. Was it right? No. Was it wrong? No. But i think I speak for those who hated with me and against me when I say this.
Its easy to, "Why'd you do it?"
Its harder to follow that advice...
Somethings are truly easier said than done...
There was still the time I started screaming on the bus at Nithya. Why? I was jealous that she liked Anaz. Was it a rational decision? Screaming "Fuck you lah Chee Bai Tiu Lei Lo Mo" on a bus full of school children is never rational...
Was it logical?
If you take into consideration the nature of our species... Yes it was logical. Why wouldn't I be angry? And Jealous? I didn't have the right to, but thats the thing. If people keep saying, 'You dont have the rights to -blah blah-', then where do I show my emotions? Lock them up?
Is there a way for me to obtain this right? The right to shout at someone. The right to feel jealous... Screw it man, I'm going to start a comapny that hands out this rights to people who give justifiable reasons... It would be fun, but at the same time, it will give people a chance to reveal their problems.
I know people have told you that what you did was wrong Suadz. People are asking you why did you blog that way about Parmes. Some even ask you what rights do you have to do that... Can you help me ask them what rights do they have to advice or scold you about what you say on your own blog? No one has the rights to say anything about what you said...
But then again, when a man kills his wife for cheating on him, is it a display of his anger? Yes. He was angry and felt betrayed and he took it out on his wife. But does his emotions give him the rights to kill her? No.
Was it wrong? Who knows... We live in a lawful society where the laws are written by Man..Who knows what is the universal meaning of right and wrong... We are just living by Man's standard of right and wrong.
But what you did was an expression of how you felt at that time. I wont deny it... It feels good to just bitch and rant about someone.
We've been doing it for the past 3 weeks about our own friends. Why? Cos we were angry and it felt good and right to do it. They talked about us too. They felt betrayed and insulted, so that gave them the 'right' to talk about us.
But amongst all that dislike and bitching, we forgot the one most important thing... That we are human... Everyone is flawed. Why must I hate on someone for a minute flaw when they have done so much for me. I felt this when I bought a bottle of Heineken and sat down with a friend to drink at Broadway. Before we started, I was like "I'm sitting down and drinking beer with someone I've been bitching about for 2 weeks or so."...
By the end, I was like, "Why was I bitching about someone whom I know cared for me, and still does. Who has done so much, who has helped so much. Who respects me, and knows the feeling was mutual. Whom I treasure as a clsoe friends, a teammate, a part of a family..."
I felt stupid and duped by my own feelings. I felt I had potentially ruined my relationship with many people. But I realised something else later on when I sat down and drank with other friends...
Sometimes its easy to forget we are beings of emotions... We have feelings. We get angry and tend to pick our flaws or make up flaws and bitch about one another. We give in to anger and hate and let our emotions deicide the course of our life.
As for my friends, I think you know who you guys are. I went through a rough patch. I took out my anger on you guys, even though I believed it would never happen again. I wont give excuses. I will apologize, but I expect no forgiveness. Its easy to say sorry... Its harder to repair the damage you caused...
I gave in to my anger. Was it right? No. Was it wrong? No. But i think I speak for those who hated with me and against me when I say this.
Its easy to, "Why'd you do it?"
Its harder to follow that advice...
Somethings are truly easier said than done...
Settling Down Again...
I think the best blog title for me is my own name... Weirded out? Yeah. I'm sure you're tired of the constant blog changes. I'll talk about that in a bit.
Well, after jumping through several blogger templates, I've settled on this one.
Minimalist... Not quite like me, but its less crazy, and that's good.
It's been a long two or so weeks. A lot of things went down in these two weeks, that lead to more shit going down. Hopefully thingswill clear up slowly. Thats that.
I shall close the book on thes past few chapters of life. Not been a very easy journey, but its the end. Time for me to move on.
In other news, good luck to all my O'Levels and A'Levels taking brothers and Sister. Hang in there dudes and deduette... Your journey's coming to and end soon. After that, its a nicelong break for you guys...
To Suadz and Isabelle... Forget what all that anger we've harbored. Why throw away friendships over trifle matters? I rather laugh about the good times then talk about the bad times...
To Naathan... Sorry I've been laying off a bit bro. I'll get that script out asap... Count on that.
To Ganesh, Prabs, Sathin, Serena, Saras, Shanty and to some extent Henry.... Funky Hairdos guys... Taking craziness and funkiness to a whole new level... Especially love Prabs fireball hairdo... Keeping up with the whole Phoneix Image I see... LOL...
Okay...Did I miss out anyone? Nope. Cool shit! Gotta go get ready for work... Thats getting fraggy without fun people... But hey what the heck? It's ok money with great benefits. Lol..
PS: Who can lend me their laptops (hints to Ganesh and Henry) to use Photoshop? I want to see how AFT logo looks in Yellow, Lime Green and Orange... Serious...
Well, after jumping through several blogger templates, I've settled on this one.
Minimalist... Not quite like me, but its less crazy, and that's good.
It's been a long two or so weeks. A lot of things went down in these two weeks, that lead to more shit going down. Hopefully thingswill clear up slowly. Thats that.
I shall close the book on thes past few chapters of life. Not been a very easy journey, but its the end. Time for me to move on.
In other news, good luck to all my O'Levels and A'Levels taking brothers and Sister. Hang in there dudes and deduette... Your journey's coming to and end soon. After that, its a nicelong break for you guys...
To Suadz and Isabelle... Forget what all that anger we've harbored. Why throw away friendships over trifle matters? I rather laugh about the good times then talk about the bad times...
To Naathan... Sorry I've been laying off a bit bro. I'll get that script out asap... Count on that.
To Ganesh, Prabs, Sathin, Serena, Saras, Shanty and to some extent Henry.... Funky Hairdos guys... Taking craziness and funkiness to a whole new level... Especially love Prabs fireball hairdo... Keeping up with the whole Phoneix Image I see... LOL...
Okay...Did I miss out anyone? Nope. Cool shit! Gotta go get ready for work... Thats getting fraggy without fun people... But hey what the heck? It's ok money with great benefits. Lol..
PS: Who can lend me their laptops (hints to Ganesh and Henry) to use Photoshop? I want to see how AFT logo looks in Yellow, Lime Green and Orange... Serious...
10/07/2009
Life Drags On...
This Holidays seem to have no end...
I am surprised... I am actually starting to get bored of this holidays. It's getting boring. Laying around nothing to do... Work is boring now cos its not a peak period... The only thing spicing everything up is meeting people like Isabelle and Suadz and others these past few days.
Hmm...I need a new hobby...
I am surprised... I am actually starting to get bored of this holidays. It's getting boring. Laying around nothing to do... Work is boring now cos its not a peak period... The only thing spicing everything up is meeting people like Isabelle and Suadz and others these past few days.
Hmm...I need a new hobby...
10/06/2009
What Happened to those Days...
Am on the phone with Suadz, whose blasting Cinderella Revamped songs through her room... OK she said something retarded... Lol...
Listening to Its my Time.
Brings back memories of Saturdays.
The really nice Saturdays where I'm at the CC at 7.30 am and we will be practising all the way to 10 pm...and beyond.
I loved what we did back then. It was somthing that will bring a smile to my face.. Something I'd skip school for...and I did skip school.... Lol.
Back then, it seemed so fun. So...refreshing to be part of something new and fresh. It was the same feeling for the rest of us. Everyone. We were the first of a kind. And I loved that feeling..
Now not so...
Somewhere along the way, that feeling got lost in the piles of projects and work. Wow... How do you sustain joy and enthusiasm when facing a wall of work and meetings and discussions... Its hard. Not to say we aren't being the firsts, but there is just something missing... The spark...
Cinderella had it, which was why it was special for me...
AFT doesn't, I'll be honest... Not yet. At the start yeah... Now not so much... It's painful to see your enthusiasm go down... Not just yours, but others' as well. But I'll keep trying. Keep pushing to make it for AFT.
I'm just hoping Peter Pan Musical will be the same if not better. I dont mean the show... But the feeling, the joy and pride. I'm gonna miss the stage... I really want to act, especially as (censored)... Haix. but never mind, maybe next musical.
PS: Note to Some...Fine, most friends
I know I pissed you all off in the past few weeks. Not just you guys... Many of my other friends as well. Blew some friends off.... Supposed to have a road trip with them to a tropical beach in Malaysia.... Had work. Supposed to have Frisbee with some friends... Was in no mood to run around... Was supposed to be myself and go chill with friends after work etc... Wasn't in the mood to see them...
Sometimes I wonder if I have like a once every three months kinda mood swing... Wonder if they have drug for that... Interesting... I'm not emo... I just need time for myself first while I solve some home and personal issues...
As for my projects etc... Just stay on task guys... I'll pick up the pieces...
PPS: Now I'm kicking myself for not thinking of another theme for Spookfest... Evil Circus... Maybe next year. Call it the CarnEvil... We'll have evil clowns, and mutated acrobats and scary hall of mirrors etc... Next year..
PPPS: To my dog Lassie... Sorry I accidentally kicked you this morning... Was streching... Will take you for a walk tomorrow... Love you goodnight...
Listening to Its my Time.
Brings back memories of Saturdays.
The really nice Saturdays where I'm at the CC at 7.30 am and we will be practising all the way to 10 pm...and beyond.
I loved what we did back then. It was somthing that will bring a smile to my face.. Something I'd skip school for...and I did skip school.... Lol.
Back then, it seemed so fun. So...refreshing to be part of something new and fresh. It was the same feeling for the rest of us. Everyone. We were the first of a kind. And I loved that feeling..
Now not so...
Somewhere along the way, that feeling got lost in the piles of projects and work. Wow... How do you sustain joy and enthusiasm when facing a wall of work and meetings and discussions... Its hard. Not to say we aren't being the firsts, but there is just something missing... The spark...
Cinderella had it, which was why it was special for me...
AFT doesn't, I'll be honest... Not yet. At the start yeah... Now not so much... It's painful to see your enthusiasm go down... Not just yours, but others' as well. But I'll keep trying. Keep pushing to make it for AFT.
I'm just hoping Peter Pan Musical will be the same if not better. I dont mean the show... But the feeling, the joy and pride. I'm gonna miss the stage... I really want to act, especially as (censored)... Haix. but never mind, maybe next musical.
PS: Note to Some...Fine, most friends
I know I pissed you all off in the past few weeks. Not just you guys... Many of my other friends as well. Blew some friends off.... Supposed to have a road trip with them to a tropical beach in Malaysia.... Had work. Supposed to have Frisbee with some friends... Was in no mood to run around... Was supposed to be myself and go chill with friends after work etc... Wasn't in the mood to see them...
Sometimes I wonder if I have like a once every three months kinda mood swing... Wonder if they have drug for that... Interesting... I'm not emo... I just need time for myself first while I solve some home and personal issues...
As for my projects etc... Just stay on task guys... I'll pick up the pieces...
PPS: Now I'm kicking myself for not thinking of another theme for Spookfest... Evil Circus... Maybe next year. Call it the CarnEvil... We'll have evil clowns, and mutated acrobats and scary hall of mirrors etc... Next year..
PPPS: To my dog Lassie... Sorry I accidentally kicked you this morning... Was streching... Will take you for a walk tomorrow... Love you goodnight...
Welcome to the Circus
Before you ask me I moved, I'll just explain.
Styles of Yoji was never meant to imply any sort of fashion sense. It implied the different faces I put on. In front of friends, schoolmates, family blah blah.
Different people. Different masks.
So I got sick and tired of wearing a mask, so now I'm cool with who I am.
Necro Circus is just an idea I had.
Its a circus that is twisted and evil. In essence, think Nightmare before Christmas mashed with the original joker and a drop of Tim Burton'm imagination...
Voila! Imagine mimes, who are miming against their will, evil clowns, cotton candy made from the blood of-you get the point.
Anyways, just got Ganesh'slaptop for approximately 15 plus hours. In that 15 hours, i intend to milk as much as possible out of her laptop. Got a lot of stuff to do.
Will update about life in the past week.
Adieu...
Styles of Yoji was never meant to imply any sort of fashion sense. It implied the different faces I put on. In front of friends, schoolmates, family blah blah.
Different people. Different masks.
So I got sick and tired of wearing a mask, so now I'm cool with who I am.
Necro Circus is just an idea I had.
Its a circus that is twisted and evil. In essence, think Nightmare before Christmas mashed with the original joker and a drop of Tim Burton'm imagination...
Voila! Imagine mimes, who are miming against their will, evil clowns, cotton candy made from the blood of-you get the point.
Anyways, just got Ganesh'slaptop for approximately 15 plus hours. In that 15 hours, i intend to milk as much as possible out of her laptop. Got a lot of stuff to do.
Will update about life in the past week.
Adieu...
No No No...
Listening to Frank Sinatra and Amy Winehouse for the past hour.
Like the grooviness in her songs. Nice to slow dance to. Lol... Brings to mind glittery pants, disco balls, afros and tight shirts... Damn 80s...
Anyways, spent the day with Isabelle. Chilled out at CCK for a while then headed over to Woodlands to catch Phobia 2. Its nice to scare yourself sometimes and this was one of those times. Mani... I just want to say that the popping session was power packed with some really groovy waves.. Oh... Customer Service... LOL.
Saw the Mega-Giggolo of this era...Andrew Blank. Bro, change your hairdo seriously. The whole 2 directional tsunami shit aint working for you. Ok la. Nice to see another dustbin like me so enjoyed the conversations/burning on the train back to Sembawang.
Oh, also saw Lex at work today. Lol. Auntie to the max... We got a lot of catching up to do, seriously.
Wow... Sound gay... Oh well. I can go both ways.
Pus is oozing out my wound now so I'm going to squeeze that out. I'll dress this wound and get back to surfing the net and disturbing friends, so Chiaoz.
And oh ya, I brought it back cos I got too many questions on why I moved my blog.
Happy now Bouncer? Lol. JKJK...not...
Like the grooviness in her songs. Nice to slow dance to. Lol... Brings to mind glittery pants, disco balls, afros and tight shirts... Damn 80s...
Anyways, spent the day with Isabelle. Chilled out at CCK for a while then headed over to Woodlands to catch Phobia 2. Its nice to scare yourself sometimes and this was one of those times. Mani... I just want to say that the popping session was power packed with some really groovy waves.. Oh... Customer Service... LOL.
Saw the Mega-Giggolo of this era...Andrew Blank. Bro, change your hairdo seriously. The whole 2 directional tsunami shit aint working for you. Ok la. Nice to see another dustbin like me so enjoyed the conversations/burning on the train back to Sembawang.
Oh, also saw Lex at work today. Lol. Auntie to the max... We got a lot of catching up to do, seriously.
Wow... Sound gay... Oh well. I can go both ways.
Pus is oozing out my wound now so I'm going to squeeze that out. I'll dress this wound and get back to surfing the net and disturbing friends, so Chiaoz.
And oh ya, I brought it back cos I got too many questions on why I moved my blog.
Happy now Bouncer? Lol. JKJK...not...
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